That won't be enough anyway

I just had an aha moment.

I was walking past my pantry (this place and I have issues, if you haven't noticed) and I wanted some gummy snacks. Moments earlier you would have seen me eating a package of gummy snacks, so on this trip I was thinking "I want more. That tasted good and I want some more of it." But what I heard when I stopped and thought this was this:

You don't need this. That won't be enough anyway.

I must lie to myself when I take more. I must tell myself that just this little bit more will satisfy. And each time I go for more I come out wanting more. I'm not satisfied. At the end of it all I am is guilty...guilty of giving into whims, of believing lies, of making myself feel physically miserable.

My verse this week encourages me to honor God with my body:

1 Corinthians 6:19-20 (New International Version)

19Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.

Praise him that he is winning battles in my mind. This week has been a hard adjustment to a new schedule in our household. I'm finding honoring God with my body a tough thing to do when the fridge is more available and my schedule isn't so predictable. But I am hearing his voice in the pantry...so there is hope that the Holy Spirit who is in me will triumph over the whims ands ways of my own flighty spirit.